the first month with baby

By week 2, reality was starting to kick in. hubs was back to work and i was on my own. the days seemed so long, it was snowing outside, my stitches were so sore and on my home midwife check up the tear had opened and i needed antibiotics. i couldn't sit down, so my hubs was sent on another mission to find me a rubber ring in the middle of winter.



I breastfed for 5 days, he got the colostrum. i was disappointed i couldn't manage longer but i was in so much pain down below, i couldn't sit to feed, so would stand sometimes feeding him for hours.

i felt very emotional, it was like a roller coaster, i was so happy and inlove with my new little bundle of joy and wanting to cherish every moment, yet at the same time i felt sleep deprived, i wasnt eating, i had barely been out and was going slightly stir crazy.

Motherhood was much harder than I thought it would be. Learning the skills of how to bathe baby, make up the formula, getting him to sleep...